Now let me just say I hate when people blast their information on social media sites and at the end say "don't hit me up" or "leave me alone". THEN WHY DID YOU PUT YOURSELF OUT THERE! Today's post isn't for attention or to get a response for anyone saying everything will be alright blah blah blah. I ain't with all that. I'm just spitting the truth right now. I'm a closed person but I need y'all to feel me right now.
The past 24 hours of my life have been real crazy. I witnessed one of my family members kick other family members out when they have no where to go. I'm stuck being the middle man trying to figure this out. I have two older brothers that I don't even know. They say blood is thicker then water but my shit is looking real anemic right about now.
One brother I'm cool with I can't front. But, I'm closer to his best friend then I am to him. "I'm my brothers keeper" is some bulllshit. (Idk random thought) Excuse my language by the way. I tend not to curse but if the shoe fits I'm wearing it. I have another brother that I don't even know. We lived together up to my college years but besides looks I don't know one thing about him. Everybody from my hometown will probably get a kick out of this because they know exactly who I'm talking about. Nobody on the outside never understood why we didn't get along. But, much like Jesus said " if you deny me in front of men I will deny you in front of my father" there is no love to be found or lost. "That's not my brother"......"I don't know that nigga"...just a few words I heard when I'm referred to by this particular "brother". Do I feel some type of way....I would be lying if I said no but if you ain't with me then your against me. Plain and simple. And he gonna text me telling me to say happy birthday to a father that didn't play his part...what!
The females in my life is another story. I have a mother that gets the impossible done. I have a sister that legit turned her negatives into positives but always seam to get the short side of the stick. But, these two can't get along. It's so bad that holiday gatherings aren't even a option. I swear if they got along it would be the equivalent of Shaq and Kobe, Jordan and Pippen aka get shit done and make things happen.
It's funny because my sister is from my fathers side. So technically she is my family but not my mothers. But, family isn't about blood. When you love and support one another that's family. When you invest your time and love and receive the same back that's family. I tried to dig deeper to find the root of the problem between my mother and sister but I was told there isn't a issue. Somebody is lying to themselves. I can't force a mute person to talk and I can't make the blind see.
So now what? Being the creator of Be Your Own Dad I need to turn this negative situation into a positive one. I'll let you guys know if I ever do....I'm out.
Jimmy..My son..You are a wonderful man.All of the Walker and Rose family love you to the moon and back..You know that right??? You are always loved and welcome to every and any family gathering here ...you know that right?? I know that doesn't fill the empty feeling of a loving real family because that is the way it is with some of my family members also.so I know the pain.What I do know is I have looked beyond what society has portrayed what family is supposed to be and have met people in my life that love me and give me the feeling I would love to have within my own biological family... having a perfect family is certainly an illusion..if you really think about it and think way back most marriages were arranged and they just did what was expected..The mother had babies,and the father worked and paid the bills. The father was a father and not a dad and the mothers did the best with what they had.. End of story.. and we were taught not to ask questions. Or for some reason you just knew not to..maybe there is no turning this negative situation into positive..and why should you burden your shoulders with it all..What I can suggest to you is when you do have your own family you make t all you would love it to be..As a parent I made many mistakes Jimmy and all I can do is learn from it and make it different from this day on..I try to give my kids things I was missing as a child and still as an adult.My life is not perfect but it is full of love and support with my daughters and I have wonderful friends that I call family and can call on for just about anything..Sometimes we just can't make the blind see and the mute talk but you can make a difference in your very own family and children..Ohhh but don't forget the rules...get married first..LOL
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